It is only when u get down on your knees and pray, thats the time when the holy spirit manifests the greatest*=) Im praying fervently for all of you out there!
As i lay down on my bed yesterday night, many things went through my mind and i began giving serious thought to each one of them and i prayed. Despite how heavily burdened i have been feeling lately, last night just seemed so different after i read what lucille posted on our blog.One part that really woke me up was the part which says: *If we dont stop dwelling in our sadness, it will just start to become a cycle if we allow negative thoughts to flow through our minds constantly.Feeling upset and letting people affect our thoughts is just not right.i'm not saying that you can't be feeling sad. i'm saying once you've cried, journalled, prayed and commit it to our father, it's time to get back on your feet and continue glorifying Him.* I was really encouraged and i just felt like God was telling me to get back up on my feet and get things right once again, esp after joanne affirmed me.=) It was only till last night that i was able to see things in such a positive light again.Guess what i did next before i turned in? YUPS! i mass messaged the whole of my class girls[except manda-cos i didnt have her number!=( and kiran cos she doesnt have her fone with her?yehhs.] and told them just how much i miss not seeing all of them in schooL ytd and how badly i needed to get back to class!spent like 45 mins typing and messaging all of them before i headed into dreamland~~yehhs!hmms...just realised that 4E1 girls are all such PIGS la!!!!!!none of you replied me except shuying and charis...i mean,come on!im sick and i slept later then all of you!!!FAINTS.it was only ten mins to midnight?guess biology class really got you girls hyped up during the afternoon ahh?=)laughs.
Lolipops used to mean a world to me...like how much i use to love them, but i still remember that fateful day, when i threw that particular one right into the bin. i was bitter and i just felt like i cudnt stand the taste of it anymore.It was only until today, that i grabbed the whole box of lollies that ive kept and have not touched for ages and brought it to school, with some chocolates. Its been almost a month, and u shud have seen the number of lolipops i had with me..man,i cud prolly open up a candy store lah! once again, i wanna thk God for blessing me with the many people who tries to sweeten up my day with many candies.i wanna tell you that uve been sucessful and im really happy!=) alrights...so i entered class and i was so amazed to see the area ard me sparkle! i mean there wasnt balloons and signs saying *WELCOME BACK VERA* la...but the place i was sitting at, just seemed so lovely cos it was spick and span, and my table was cleared. The books underneath my table were neatly arranged! and there was absolutely NO LITTER. i mean, u can never find that kind of *scenary* ard my area with khairul and ahravin sitting behind me i tell ya...GOSH! i was dumbfounded.i shot J LOW that look and just by looking at me, she knew what i was trying to ask her... she gave me her usual sweet little smile and said: yups!i did it for ya!man...i was so touched. was planning to come back to school and have all my things packed up..hmms, guess i dun have to do it anymore yehs?xie xie ni jie ling!=) Wonder what kiki and sherry told me was true!hee..u girls were actually having ice coffee in remembrance of me at vista ytd?awwrr...how sweet la!come on!depression because of me? amn i suppose to believe ya? I distributed out the lollies to the girls and the chocolates to the guys!!To me, Lolipops represents Love and it was really such a joy to see that smile on all of their faces when we exchanged hugs and when i gave them their lollies...I guess, through this small act of giving, ive found greater JOY. Cos i mean, why keep all the loliies to yourself rights?By giving each girl a lolipop today, it meant that i really love them and they meant a world to me. cant imagine life without all of you..i nearly died at home ytd lahs..was so bored!it was a good thing that Joanne called. hee!ure still the best wEeeEI-PinG! Through these two years...ive seen all of us, growing and changing as a class, especially the girls and we've really bonded sooo much and sometimes, it pains me to noe that after this year,we'll go separate ways and the chances of meeting up again is so slim. still remember telling some of you how nice it'll be to be able to attend lessons together till the day we all get married and have kids![like kids running ard the class with us?]i noe its really silly lahs..but man..sometimes i just wish we didnt have to part!urghs.seen you girls been through nearly every emotion and feeling one can ever experienced.from the clicks we used to hang out with, we're now bonded as one whole class and everyone just seems to understand everyone sometimes.=) Headed down for assembly and man..i got breakfast done by jesslyn. i mean it was only a cake but it was really sweet of her to remember me.thks jesslyn!haha..sat with amanda and chatted with her abt the full moon and pasta* LOL. yehs,it was really good catch up time and she gave me post stick pads again. they were all of different patterns and all of them were of disney princesses!beams. Rach and sherry gave me more lollies, but andrew took one of them away lahs!hmpffS! he always does these things to annoy me...haha!but who ask him to be TWO heads taller then me?im afraid of him trampling over me like a pathetic ant okiez?heex!class was fun...throwing cheeseballs and haha!i finally broke my *lolipop-fast* and ate a green apple one!wheee!it tasted like honey comb, not like the one i had last time, but still, it was sweet enough.YaY!Mdm wan, my chinese teacher even gave me a coffee lolipop!!haha, man.. it wasnt "chupuchup"[how do u spell it?=D] so it didnt tasted as right..but it was okie...i cud pull out the stick frm the lollie lahs!...hee!ok, guess what? Joel stole a lolipop frm me okie..charis!its the flavour u like alrights...PEACH! yehs, he said he stole it from me during assembly, but i cudnt get it back cos he was again, one head taller and he might just pull out all of my hair if i snatched it back..haha!so i blessed him with one! At the end of the day.. the whole classroom was filled with sweet and chocolate wrappers.i hope mr than doesnt kill us lahs.Mrs Devan[BIO!!!] even asked me how come i had so many lolipops to give out.o0o0psIE! anyways...today was one of the most beautiful days i had and i really want to thank you all for the INDESCRIBABLE amounts of TLC uve showered upon me and okie...i promise to be the *candy grandma* of 4E1 from now ons kies?this shop will be entitled to only all 4E1-ians.yups!hee...as im writting this entry, im still laughing at the smses you girls sent to Mr Ng la...i bet he's traumitised!awwr...Oh ya! est and jesslyn...i typed out that letter specially for u two ahh.. and i was sick okies?aint u touch?u better be ahhhh!!=)hmmms...one more thing, really want to thank you guys for writting beautiful letters and stories to me about the world's prettiest things. and haha, cant wait to show everyone the lolipop stories you guys wrote for me.melts, am blessed to have you all. So many things happened today so i simply cant write everything down. promised u guys to blog ya?so im doing it now !man...guess this is my last entry bloggin abt my day to day life...i really dunch like doing it, but since today was soooo special to me, i'l make it an exception!!!sherry!remember the style of bloggin we used to laugh abt?my gosh, it was hilarious!haa, i cant blog anymore...really tired really really am!!! OH wait, 8-23 ahravin and Nasri...i love both of yer jerseys,it has me on it!no wonder you guys can wrk so well together...hee!vera supprts you both!LOL. *im really sorry to those who have been reading my entry and not knowing what's going on.haha, u noe why?cos ure not a 4E1-ian.laughs.was telling meli to join our class for one day, to see how thrilling it'll be!man..if i were to write out the number of amusing stories that happens in our class and compile it into a book, i guess it'll sell like hotcakes, even faster then JK rowling's ones...[MRS CHONG!]*
Joanne...i need to see you tmr, get your hair cut by the hairdresser underneath my block.PERIOD.love ya princess!
Its been more than those 72 hrs that i used to anticipate your return.Like a little girl, im still waiting. Daddy, tell me how u want me to take the next step. I want to do things your way this time, not mine.Its not all about me Jesus.=)
